Are you a shy, sensitive kid whose favorite Winnie the pooh characters were Eeyore and Piglet because they were gloomy and nervous.
It is difficult to describe what depression feels like but it causes social isolation, solitude and self bullying. Then you hide what was going in your brain, having only one mission "to do work that makes a difference".
Are you tired of being tired, you spend every single day of your life honoring your feelings. It is time to let go of thinking of depression and other mental illness. It is time to talk about it to people, it is time to let go of hatred, hurt and anger, it is time to build your strength of will.
Depression is not about faith, or what you believe in, it is about getting a help, not just a therapist but an amazing one because in reality your brain doesn't work the way most people do. Depression can rob you the majority of your life. Surrounding yourself with talented, high achieving people doesn't help sometimes and remember you not the only one, the rich get depressed while the poor also get depressed, but it is not too late for you to have a chance of change. It is not too late to make a life and live beyond your depressed state of mind. Life is richer with you in it.